I’m listening to Brandy’s song “Something’s Missing”. I was drawn to the beat of the song (it is an a cappella song) and it was awhile before I paid attention to the lyrics. Here is a slice from the song (and here’s the YouTube link if you want to listen).

Feels like I’m leaving something behind
Can’t think straight, something’s on my mind
Can’t pay attention, ‘cuz I’m all so broke
Can’t find the words, ‘cuz they all been spoke
The answer’s gonna be right in my face
What I gotta do to fill this empty space?

I imagine a lot of people feel that way. I know I have in my life. I knew something was wrong and I couldn’t figure out what was missing. I found that during times like that I knew the answer and I didn’t want to face it. I didn’t want to accept it. Situations like that are “damned if you do, damned if you don’t” situations. One can’t continue to go around feeling that way and if one stops avoiding the reality of the situation the person is running from the inevitable pain, anger, drama, (insert emotion here) comes…the very emotion(s) the person was trying to avoid in the first place.

Since one is going to feel miserable-ish anyway, it’s better to look the reality in the face than avoid it. At least for me. Easy to type, not quite as easy to do.

In life we all have to pay the price for the choices we make. We do end up owning our actions one way or another whether it be how we allow ourselves to be treated or how we treat others. Be lazy and not achieve the goals you know need to be made the day will come when you will wish you weren’t so lazy. Take advantage of the good people in your life the day will come when you’ll wish you appreciated those people. Miss an opportunity and one day you’ll wish you struck while the iron was hot.

Yesterday I found out that my guild disbanded sometime during the day. The name of my guild was Hell. I was told the guild master kept having dreams about Satan tormenting him for creating a guild named Hell. In the dream God told him he would be punished for siding with Satan. He became sick yesterday, freaked out and disbanded the guild. It sounds stupid but I think I understand his fear.

His karma isn’t good enough for him to push his luck.

Obviously something “else” is igging the guild master and he’s trying to make up for it. Problem is, a guild named Hell isn’t what is igging him and disbanding the guild won’t right whatever wrongs he has done. He’ll have to look at reality, the reality he’s avoiding, to find his answers. However, this is a good example of how one can make “interesting” (didn’t want to say “bad”) decisions when their minds aren’t right.

I’m listening to Brandy’s song “Something’s Missing”. I was drawn to the beat of the song (it is an a cappella song) and it was awhile before I paid attention to the lyrics. Here is a slice from the song (and here’s the YouTube link if you want to listen):

Feels like I